Heaven

So Braden and me were sitting eating and he decides to have one of those serious talks with me....you should know that Braden is my serious, compassionate, very smart, and sensitive kid so I took this talk to heart! He informs me that I can talk to God if I needed to and I told him that mommy talks to God alot several times a day it is good to talk to him, If u have faith in God you can get through anything he will always be by your side, Braden then says when will I get to meet him and I tried to explain the best I could that when it is your time to meet him it will be a wonderful peaceful time! So then he decides to tell me he is not ready to meet him and I am thinking Lord I am not ready either and I feel so selfish for saying this because there are so many parents around me that don't even get hours or days with there children so I just tried to finish this talk without crying but then he adds but when I do get to meet him Will I get to meet bigmomma ( bigmomma is my moms mom that we lost to cancer before Braden was born he has heard lots of stories and seen tons of pictures of her)  I told him of course you will she will be waiting with open arms she can't wait to meet you!!  This was a very sensitive talk because my Bigdaddy is on the downhill side of things right now just been a rough time.  This just reminds me how thankful and blessed I am to be Braden, Carter, and Emmas mom!  I love them more then they could ever imagine!!